where is the passion?

From K in New England:

I feel like I'm waiting for something. The next step? Where do I go now? I want to feel passionate about doing something. Why do I feel like my life is in a holding pattern?
 
Hi K. I have restructured your several questions into one, as follows, and drawn a four-card layout so that we have the "next step" card. The Fool represents the going ahead and doing of things even when we aren't sure where they are leading to and even when others are telling us we're being irresponsible or silly (or maybe we are thinking it ourselves), with faith that we will find our way and that the outcome will be positive.

Question: What do I most need to know right now about the place I am at in my life?
 
Answer- V Pentacles
Why that is - XIV  Temperance
Next Step – 0 Fool
Outcome – XV The Devil
 
You are expending your energy keeping your life balanced and orderly, and you’re doing a fine job of it, but there is something you haven’t made room for, and that is fun and excitement. Allow yourself some play time. It doesn’t have to be a great passionate undertaking or a noble cause for the good of humankind; you just need to let yourself do what the child in you enjoys doing, without always having an end in sight or a practical outcome in mind.
This is something that is not going to come easily to you. You will find that you give yourself a hard time about it. You will feel guilty because you have left things undone around the home in order to indulge yourself, and this does not sit well with you. You will have to keep reminding yourself that if the spark of joy is not nurtured, none of the rest of your accomplishments really matter. You are a person who works first and plays only if there is time left to do so. Retrain yourself to play first, because then you will do the necessary tasks with vigour and spunk.
Suggested, for you, is the weekly “artist’s date” that is recommended in Julia Cameron’s book The Artist’s Way. Once a week you have a standing engagement —with yourself— to do something that has no practical outcome in mind, but is solely for pleasure, for adventure, and for discovery. Maybe it’s browsing in a bookstore or flea market or going to a movie or a coffee shop with entertainment. Maybe it's sitting down and fingerpainting, or lying in a scented bath. Whatever you choose to do, and it may always be different, pick a day of the week and block off several hours of pure “you” time.
In this way you will get in touch with your passions again and, although you will struggle with the idea of putting your happiness before the completion of the duties you daily set for yourself, eventually it will be proven that if your spirit is cared for first, you will have more energy and strength to deal with all the rest of it and you will be even more productive than you are now.
But best of all, you will begin to feel passionate about your life again.

 I am posting the Fool card, which is your next step. Imagine it as a large poster tacked to the wall next to your bed, to remind you to let your child self, your inner self, lead the way a little more.

Hi Kate -  Thanks so much for doing this, it was right on the mark.  I have however in these past months begun to indulge in more 'me' time.  In fact doing the very things that were suggested here.  At least I know I'm on the right path by listening to my inner self.
This was fun.
Thanks.
K in New England

K, Then the cards seem to be telling you to continue on exactly as you are.